“Deitrick Haddon: Out of the black and in the R.E.D. GOD’s Masterpiece Revealed to a City of A Billion People…” Episode 29

Check out Tales from a Butterfly podcast episode 29:
“Deitrick Haddon: Out of the black and in the R.E.D. GOD’s Masterpiece Revealed to a City of A Billion People…”
What an honor and priviledge to interview Pastor Deitrick Haddon.

The word Masterpiece is defined as “a work done with extraordinary skill; especially, a supreme intellectual or artistic achievement.” Deitrick Haddon is the masterpiece and mouthpiece that GOD is using to challenge, change and stretch the traditional religious paradigms. And although he has been through his own personal storms, through his music, he helps others move into their sunshine. And now, GOD is revealing the Masterpiece known as Deitrick Haddon, to a Billion People in Hill City… Make SURE you go to iTunes, Amazon, Google Play Music or wherever it is you listen to music and download the song “A Billion People”…It will change the way you worship!

Take a look at the video and then click the MP3 link below to listen to the Tales from A Butterfly interview with Pastor Deitrick!


Make sure, if you are not already go and follow Deitrick on Twitter @DeitrickHaddon, On Instagram @dhaddy and @DeitrickTV, your number 1 source for gospel news, fashion and kingdom lifestyle worldwide! And after you follow him go and subscribe, comment, and rate the podcast, by going to either iTunes, Blubrry, Stitcher, Podbean or SoundCloud, and type in “Tales from A Butterfly.” The more ratings I get on iTunes, the more visible the podcast, which will in turn bring in more sponsors and that is really important guys.

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And guys, no matter what it is you go through this week, no matter what situations you may find yourself in, remember the same GOD who created you is the SAME GOD who has already said that he will never leave you nor forsake you! And remember, your current caterpillar will one day become your future BUTTERFLY!

Fly on Butterflies! I love you guys…and thanks for watching/reading and listening!

“Dear Taria, I forgive you. Love, Taria…” Episode 28

Have you ever felt like you needed to forgive yourself for some things that you did to yourself or that you allowed to happen to you??? I have too! But guess what? You don’t have to remain in that place. I mean if GOD has already forgiven you, who are YOU to still hold yourself hostage? Take a look at the process I went through to forgive myself and to allow myself to live free in Christ!
First, let’s define the word forgiveness. According to Merriam-Webster, forgiveness is defined as:
*to give up resentment of or claim to requital; forgive an insult
*to grant relief from payment of
*to cease to feel resentment against (an offender)

So now lets start the process:
1-You need to identify the hurt that you have caused yourself. Stop sweeping it under the rug and look it square in the eye so that you can see what you are about to let go and get rid of.

2- Understand that forgiving yourself is not about forgetting. It is about not bringing the offense up to yourself in negative ways. Forgiving yourself is simply letting go of what you are holding against yourself so that you can move on with God. If God has moved on, shouldn’t we do the same? And to add to that, don’t allow others who may know of the decisions you have made that weren’t so great, continue to bring them up! Let them know that if they want to stay stuck in your pass mistakes that is there business, however, you have chosen to move forward and will no longer participate in the conversation with them.

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 Knowing that forgiving yourself is a PERSONAL ACTION. The energy it takes to harbor anger, hatred, and resentment towards yourself is exhaustive. Every bit of energy we give to negative activities and dwelling on regrets, robs us of the energy we need to become the person God wants us to be. Forgiving ourselves does not let us off the hook, it does not justify what we have done, self-forgiveness is a choice that takes courage and strength, and it gives us the opportunity to become an overcomer rather than remaining a victim of our own scorn.

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Forgiving Yourself is Helping Others and yourself. The longer you avoid forgiving yourself, the longer you allow yourself to harbor the feelings that you deserve to suffer for what you did, the more explosive you will become and, therefore, the more apt you are to hurt others. You have to, again, remember that while you cannot change what has happened and the decisions you have made in the past, forgiving yourself will allow you to truly heal from the inside out change the direction of your life. And remember this: “In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace” Ephesians 1 vs. 7 NIV

5-Remember that even though 
you made decisions that were different from the path that GOD has for you and even though you may have had to deal with the consequences of those actions, you are still GOD’s child. And he still loves you. Isaiah 43:1 NIV reads, “…Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.”
Those words weren’t just for Isaiah, they are meant for you too!

These are some notes that I wanted to share from my podcast episode titled: “Dear Taria…I forgive you. Love, Taria…” Episode 28.
To listen to the full podcast episode on how to forgive yourself and hear my letter of forgiveness to myself, click the media player below.

 

 

“Are you there GOD? It’s me, Taria”…

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Are you there GOD? It’s me, Mary Margaret…I used to love this book by Judy Blume when I was in middle school and must have read it about 4 times. In the book, Mary Margaret has a Christian Mother and a Jewish father and is confused as to her belief in GOD and if she actually believes in GOD. She goes to school and is given a yearlong independent study project and she chooses to study peoples’ beliefs. So every time she had a question for GOD about things she didn’t understand and needed him to explain, she would start out by saying, “Are you there GOD? It’s me, Mary Margaret.” This book came back to my remembrance while on the phone with a friend and I was losing phone service and I jokingly said, “Are you there GOD? It’s me, Taria.” My friend and I started to laugh and I asked her if she remembered the book. After we hung up, I really started thinking about the book and how Mary Margaret went to a GOD she didn’t even know for sure existed, for the answers that she so desperately needed. And then I thought, surely if he could use a donkey in the bible, he could use a fictional middle school character named Mary Margaret…So I took my cue and said out loud, “Are you there GOD? It’s me, Taria, and I need you.”

It’s not that I question if there is a GOD or my belief in GOD, however sometimes, in those midnight hours, just before the night sky allows the sun to peak through with the light of hope for another day, I ask questions…Questions that if GOD can’t answer, I know I won’t get one. I want to know why at 39 years, 1 month and 23 days old, I feel like I am stuck. I am 312 days’ shy of my 40th birthday and I feel like I am stuck. Am I STILL in a caterpillar cocoon that is seemingly steeped in ashes, fighting through a transformation to finally possess the beauty of the butterfly? I ask him if the poor choices and decisions I made earlier in life became the matches that lit my hopes, my dreams and my passions on fire causing them to burnout and sometimes leave me feeling like all that is left of me is that powdery residue that remains after something is destroyed…ashes. But then I remembered you answered the question before I asked. You said in your word that you would give me “beauty for ashes.”

I ask him if I should be further ahead in life because even though I was born in the Eastern Standard Time zone, I feel like life has kept me in the Pacific Standard Time zone, 3 hours behind what I am supposed to be doing, continuously running on a treadmill of time that is shaky and not always sturdy, constantly trying to catch my purpose that seems to move ahead of me, but really, I’m just running in place, making no solid strides or steps forward. Is THIS where you want me to be GOD??? But then I remembered you answered the question before I asked. You said in your word that, “The LORD makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him.”

I started asking him if I had wasted all the years I have had prior to this year when I had a burning passion to use my voice to inspire greatness in others through encouragement. When I wanted you to use my voice to become a pen to my generation, an instrument that used what you put me in to help write the vision and make it plain so that when we read it, we could run with it. I wanted you to use my voice to help break the chains of hopelessness, helplessness and despair off of my fellow brothers and sisters. And yet some days I fear I have run out of ink and that the well has run dry. I wanted the sound waves of fearlessness to carry your message of hope through me and now sometimes I fear if I release this unique sound that you gave me, people will come for my neck and I will be beheaded. So should I stay silent? And YET at the same time I still feel the embers of that passion, but I question what is it about my NOW that will help anyone? How will it be different from years prior. And then I remembered, you sent the answer through Queen Esther’s story before I ever asked it.“For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance will not come… And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as THIS.”

*(Queen Esther went against the law and approached the king without being summoned which she should have been killed for, and used her voice to make sure her people were not killed. And not only did the King not kill her, he promised he would grant her request. Her belief and bravery helped save a generation from death.)

I want to encourage anyone reading this who feels like your time has come and gone for you to fully operate in the gifts and talents that GOD has given you, anyone who feels stuck in life whether it be your job or finances and fears where you are is where you will remain, anyone who feels like what GOD is leading you to do is completely out of the norm of those around you, go to your quiet space and don’t be afraid to pour your questions out to GOD. And even when you can’t verbalize in words what you are feeling and all you can do is cry out, remember that, “The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous, and his ears are attentive to their cry.” And I promise you, he will encourage you and turn your questions of doubt into answered manifestation!

I love you guys and thanks for reading!

Habakkuk 1 vs. 2 & 5

Habakkuk- “How long, Lord, must I call for help, but you do not listen…”

GOD- “Look at the nations and watch—and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told.”